my story...

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My name's Antoinette Faith - and believe me, I know exactly how you feel... In fact, that's why I started this blog - to help other women with similar struggles realise they are not alone.

As someone who has lived for many years with fibromyalgia and endometriosis, I have had to adjust to a life where the slightest thing can trigger off significant flare-ups of pain, and leave me in agony for weeks.

If you'd like to learn more about me you can find it here, but for now I'll say it took a significant impact on my health and wellbeing - and affected every area of my life. It impacted my mood and everything around me. Family members disappeared, and all but a few friends lost interest. Opportunities to work, travel or even simply enjoy life evaporated as pain became the only constant. 

 

“Why was this happening?
I wondered.
How had this occurred?...

And the recurrent thought - 
why did
my constant prayers go
unheard and unanswered?”
 

 

As a woman of faith, at times it was a challenge for me to understand why life had taken this turn.

Finally, I decided to take a different approach. What if, instead of focussing on how to reduce pain, I focused instead on becoming happier and more fulfilled in other areas? It might not reduce pain levels, I reasoned, but at least it could help me cope better with what was going on.

And that's why this blog was born. I want to help other women who are facing similar battles realise they are not alone.

The challenge to myself is that it is possible to live an inspirational life, for yourself and hopefully others, beyond pain,  and beyond the ongoing hardship and disappointments it can cause.

I am hoping it will be a help to you as we learn this paradigm shift of letting go of the anguish, worry and fear that ongoing health challenges bring, and simply learn to BE.

So, why not join me on this journey? You'll get instant access to my Free Resource Library of inspirational posters, cheatsheets and workbooks.

Click the button below to join up.

 
 

My name's Antoinette Faith - and believe me, I know exactly how you feel... In fact, that's why I started this blog - to help other women with similar struggles realise they are not alone.

As someone who has lived for many years with fibromyalgia and endometriosis, I have had to adjust to a life where the slightest thing can cause a significant flare-up of pain, and leave me in agony for weeks.

I'd been suffering for many years from fibromyalgia - a crippling pain condition -  where the slightest thing could cause a significant flare-up of pain, and leave me in agony for weeks. An agony which even the strongest pain medications could not touch. On top of that, I also suffered from endometriosis, another painful condition, which would leave me unable to sleep or even lie-down, and I could do nothing but wait for the crippling cramps to end.

All this took a toll on my energy levels, and as the months, then years, passed by my life quite literally shrunk.

There were days when I was unable to get out of bed or put on my shoes. I couldn't do any of those things which most of us take for granted. I lived in a large terrace house, with 20 steps from downstairs up to my room. And another four up to... Not too many for most children, but for me, negotiating those steps every day was sheer torture. There were so many days that it took every ounce of me just to place one foot in front of the other. The stairs may as well have been a climb up Everest. In the end, I got used to dragging myself up and down on my behind, eventually causing the pain levels to extend throughout my hip area.

At times the pain levels were so strong that nothing would touch them. It reached a point where I couldn't lie down, I couldn't stand up nor could I sit down. Every part of my was in agony, like raw and exposed nerve endings. Sometimes I'd have to be half-sitting, half crouching on the floor, with the top half of my body slumped over the bed for support.

After years of so much pain, but became so weak it. My legs began giving way underneath me. There were days I was so weak that I couldn't walk... before my legs would collapse underneath me.

I did everything I could. Cut out dairy, wheat and... yet nothing made a difference. I tried acupuncture, ..., ..., Occasionally these items gave a small temporary reprieve but things still remained the same.

My mother was a rock to me during those times.

Why was this happening to me? I wondered.

How had this occurred?

And the recurrent thought - why did my constant pleas to God go unheard and unanswered?

I devoured every book I could find in an effort to find answers. Christian books, self-help books, biographies of those who had overcome adversity, business books by self-made men (and women). Anything and everything to try and find a reason for the torment I was going through an a way to overcome it.

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Why was this happening?
I wondered.
How had this occurred?...

And the recurrent thought -
why did
my constant prayers go
unheard and unanswered?”

pink line - colour f2808e.png
 

The unrelenting effort of dealing with so much pain stretched into every area of my life. It affected my mood and everything around me. Family members disappeared and all but a few friends lost interest. Opportunities to work, travel or even simply enjoy life evaporated as pain became the only constant. 

As a woman of faith, at times it was a challenge for me to understand why my life had taken this turn.

Finally, I decided to take a different approach. What if, instead of focussing on how to reduce pain, I studied instead the relatively new science of positive psychology? If someone came across my blog and they were facing a chronic health challenge too, what would they want to know? Could I be of help in some way - and if so how?

 

So that's why I started this blog. I want to help other women who are facing similar battles with pain realise that they are not alone.

The challenge to myself is that it is possible to live an inspirational life, for yourself and hopefully others, beyond the pain. And beyond the ongoing hardship and disappointments it causes. I am hoping it will be a help to you as we learn this paradigm shift of letting go of the anguish, worry and fear that ongoing health challenges bring, and simply learn to BE.

So, why not join me on this journey? You'll get instant access to my Free Resource Library of inspirational posters, cheatsheets and workbooks.

Click the button below to join up.

 
HI - I'M ANTOINETTE !  I help women with chronic pain use positive psychology to live the fulfilling life they deserve. I have personal experience of fibromyalgia and endometriosis, and know firsthand the devastation it can cause. I'm here to help you with my positive and uplifting blog. Interested?  Read More

HI - I'M ANTOINETTE!

I help women with chronic pain use positive psychology to live the fulfilling life they deserve. I have personal experience of fibromyalgia and endometriosis, and know firsthand the devastation it can cause. I'm here to help you with my positive and uplifting blog. Interested? Read More


 

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